Words From The Soul


 

I'm sorry I loved him first Apr 29, 2014

I'm sorry I loved him first.

I'm sorry you were not the first to kiss his lips. But do remember he was not the first to kiss yours.

Your body is as touched as his own. None of us are virgins; we cannot wear white and claim to be pure.

They say you can kiss away the pain, but you cannot erase memo...

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The Love Bubble Apr 11, 2014

I find it difficult to write about him as clichƩ as it sounds he's unlike anyone I've really known.
No that's hardly true. He is not a mythical creature, some dream boy who's only flaw is perfection.

I'm sure he's perfectly flawed, I am just yet to discover them. I wanted to be wary of his sweetness...

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Whatā€™s a player without their game Mar 21, 2014

I donā€™t know why Iā€™m not scared. Why the walls I spent so many years building have disintegrated to dust.

How when he removes his hand his touch seems to linger and I feel his kisses in the pit of my stomach.

Iā€™m reeling with clichĆ©'s; heā€™s unlike anyone Iā€™ve met before, when you know you know. Ye...

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A Ben by any other name Feb 21, 2014

Itā€™s Valentineā€™s Day but I am by no means lonely. Out on the town surrounded by my best single girlfriends I canā€™t picture spending Valentineā€™s Day any other way.

In a tequila haze I catch his eye and smile. Lust at first sight I canā€™t help but turn and watch him walk past. I wonder if itā€™s my smil...

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Just tell them youā€™re not interested Feb 20, 2014

Why is it that as young women we feel itā€™s almost within our right to just disappear from menā€™s lives without any explanation?

Trying to decide how to messageĀ ā€˜The Boxerā€™Ā and tell him Iā€™m not interested, I ask myĀ 19-year-oldĀ friend what she does in these situations.Ā Ā ā€œI just stop responding to thei...

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Does anyone really enjoy polite sex? Feb 12, 2014

He's gentle and soft, his movements are calculated and slow. With the wordsĀ "Are you ok?"Ā the lust I have for him dissipates.

Giving my body over to him for the night, I welcomed him into my bed and yet his actions seem almost apologetic.

Yes he's sweet and heā€™s loving, but give me passion. Pick m...

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Please, just let me like him Feb 04, 2014

Have you ever really wanted to like someone?

Itā€™s clear they like you. Youā€™re friends adore them, they make you laugh, they seem to do everything right. You canā€™t fault any of their moves. And itā€™s not that you donā€™t find them attractive, because you do. Somethingā€™s just off. You canā€™t put your fin...

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Hospital blues Jan 30, 2014

I write this sitting in a hospital bed. Having lost the vision in my right eyeĀ (hopefully)Ā temporarily due to a severe eye infection, Iā€™m required to spend a few nights here whilst they administer eye drops every hour, on the hour. Iā€™m exhausted.

There is something about hospitals that can make eve...

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All I wanted was a week Jan 22, 2014

I was naĆÆve to believe we could continue like this. Stuck at the crossroads of having to decide whatā€™s more important to me; theĀ friendsĀ or theĀ benefits. Iā€™m not ready.Ā I ask for a week.

ā€œSo what now?ā€Ā 

Ā ā€œYouā€™re only back for a week before you leave for work. Can we not have an amazing week next w...

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How the tendency to overthink destroys everything Jan 20, 2014

My mind runs a million miles an hour. Analysing every situation over again an again, evaluating each possibility, examining every detail, questioning every motive until I form what I believe to be the truth. Frequently complimented on my insight, they donā€™t understand this is more a curse than a ble...

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My fathers daughter Jan 13, 2014

I wear my motherā€™s engagement ring as a reminder of their love. As a reminder that such love is possible for people like me.

I am my fatherā€™s daughter.

Growing up witness to a man whose love was so visibly strong and deep, who only had eyes for my mother; I found it hard to believe stories of his ...

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Death and sex Jan 10, 2014

My body aches with the pain of pleasure so intense, I want to run away. My brain is screaming at me, telling me to stop this. I could easily say ā€˜Stop, I canā€™t take it anymoreā€™ but heā€™s not done and Iā€™m curious; curious to know what will happen if I push my body past these limits.

The next orgasm b...

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Lack of definition Jan 06, 2014

When he kisses me I taste his soul, I feel him course through my veins and Iā€™m blinded. Unable to focus on anything else other than my lust for him, I crave the feeling of his body against mine.

I spend a week by his side and although every night ends with complete satisfaction my lust for him neve...

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Arguments and revelations Dec 03, 2013

***Ā Because so often music can say the things that words cannot, please play fiction by The xx while reading this post.Ā ***

There is a quote byĀ Karen Marie Morning ā€œSome people bring out the worst in you, others bring out the best, and then there are those remarkably rare, addictive ones who just b...

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My first time Nov 27, 2013

I was ashamed of my virginity. I grew up in a school where girls just shy of 14 would brag about the number of boys they had been with. The farther you had been the cooler you were. And I hadnā€™t been very far at all.

With strict religious parents enforcing the beliefs of no sex before marriage, eac...

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A womanā€™s right to change her mind Nov 14, 2013

I am angry. No I am furious, since when did it become not okay for a woman to change her mind about a man?

My housemate theĀ ā€˜Domestic Goddessā€™Ā is one of the sweetest girls I have ever known. She believes in love, true love and is what one may call a hopeless romantic. When I first met theĀ ā€˜Relation...

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Benefits and boundaries Nov 12, 2013

Still adjusting to actually being friends with my friends-with-benefits I confuse lack of sex and missing his friendship for feelings.

It started at Melbourne Cup with aĀ white-girl-wasted mutual friend explaining that we are both beingĀ dickheadsĀ by not realising we have feelings for one another. ā€œH...

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A run in with an ex Nov 07, 2013

A run in with the ex is never ideal, a run in with the ex of the man youā€™re sleeping with is pretty much as far from ideal as you want to be.

I have had my fair share of bad breakups. The kind that makes you so made you lose a part of yourself, your common sense. Suddenly it seems like a great idea...

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Fake orgasms and bad behaviour Nov 01, 2013

I do not agree with faking orgasms, I feel it encourages bad behaviour.

If what heā€™s doing isnā€™t enough to get you off why are you rewarding those efforts with a fake orgasm? In the end the only one you are hurting is yourself.

Men donā€™t forget. If he thinks what he was doing worked well and was e...

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The way to a womanā€™s bed Oct 31, 2013

We have all heard countless times that a way to a manā€™s heart is through his stomach, I wonder if someone has started the rumour that a way to a womanā€™s bed is through hers.Ā 

First off let me make this very clear gentleman I am neither complaining nor discouraging these actions.

It seems to be a c...

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Drinking Games with Schrodinger's Rapist Oct 22, 2013

The effects of a day of drinking games on an empty stomach have taken their toll, with blurred vision and Bambi legs I search for a place to lie down. Using the walls for support I stumble to my friendā€™s room collapsing on her bed as the room starts to spin.

He walks in and begins to close the door...

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He died alone Oct 17, 2013

Death is always present as much as we try to ignore it to block it from our minds it always manages to sneak up on us. Can you ever really prepare for death? Even when you know itā€™s coming, when it has been made blatantly clear that you are going to lose someone you love can you ever really be ready...

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Change my name number and run Oct 04, 2013

I awoke uneasy and restless with the overwhelming feeling that every aspect of my life is wrong.

Itā€™s as though I have been cast in a role I am so unqualified and unsuited for the only option is to run away. I wonder how many of those around me see the fraud I am, how many have picked up on my misq...

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My body craves him Oct 03, 2013

Three more sleeps untilĀ Mr Friends-with-benefitsĀ is back and my body craves him. Thoughts of his naked body consume my dreams and I find myself counting down the days. I awake to photos of his hard body and instantly want him; Words of what he will do with me stick in my head all day. He does it ver...

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